Be gone, winter blahs!

I started back on my happy pills yesterday.  

I’ve had (as my doctor once said) “a ‘touch’ of chronic depression” for years, made worse by seasonal affective disorder during the winter months.  Most of the year, I don’t even take anti-depressants unless it settles in and just won’t let go.  During the winter, though, I have to or else I wind up a miserable mess.  

One of the big concerns about our moving to Boston was how the winter weather would impact me.  Last winter, the depression was worse than usual and I wound up supplementing my normal anti-depressant with a low dosage of a second antidepressant.  It helped a lot and once spring arrived, I tapered off of them both.  So far, I haven’t felt like the Boston weather has bothered me too much.

I’ve just wrapped up well, shoveled out as needed, and gone about my business.  

But over the past few weeks, I’ve noticed a few of the telltale signs that it’s time to start back on my medications: sleep patterns awry, general apathy, the occasional misty eye for no reason… 

And, you know, being inside so much because of the weather is only part of it this time.  Working from home has meant a lot of time at home with limited social interaction (and I’m a pretty social person).  When we have gone out, we’ve not met many people or felt the places we went were all that much fun and it’s not encouraged us to bother going out more. Plus, not working full-time has meant a lot of free time and, honestly, I don’t exactly feel useful.  Since that’s impacted my income, I can’t even buy supplies to work on projects around the house.  

But hopefully, I’m starting back on the medications before it becomes too much of a problem.  

So, enough of the gloom and doom.  At least the lack of work gives me plenty of time for some crochet and knitting projects, right? 

I received some yarn as a gift a while back and promptly put it away when I saw “CAMO” on the label, but when I came across it again I realized it has some really pretty colors in it.  I’m not usually a fan of variegated yarns, but this one seemed like it had potential if I could just figure out what to do with it.  I tried a stockinette stitch: 



(I’m not sure why that’s sideways, but WordPress won’t let me rotate it so we’ll just move right along.

I also spent some time trying different variations of slip stitches, just to see what I’d come up with: 


My, but that’s some professional looking knitting right there.  Don’t judge – I’m new to this!  

I finally settled on a honeycomb stitch.  Of course, I’ve botched it up already but the combination of variegated yarn and the stitch pattern is pretty forgiving: 


I also decided around Christmas that I’d crochet an afghan for my mom.  My first thought was granny squares, but I’m feeling indifferent toward the granny squares these days… so I decided to go with hexagons.  Being the stubborn thing that I am, I decided to see if I could come up with a basic hexagon and then make it my own.  Who needs a pattern, right?!?  

So far, I’m kinda so-so about them.  Oh, and take a look at the rather interesting color combination I used: 


Again, don’t judge.  Orange is my go-to (read, favorite) color, I have a ton of white yarn, and the pink was just handy. The actual colors would be different, but this is something to work with while I figure out what I want to do.  It is rather sad to see someone with marketing and graphic design experience abuse colors in such a way, though. 

So, until next time…

7 thoughts on “Be gone, winter blahs!

  1. I am totally in awe of your crocheting skills! And I think your knitting skills are none too shabby, either, despite what you say 🙂
    Hope the Boston weather doesn’t get you down. I have the opposite problem, living here in Australia: heat waves really get to me. We had a big one last week, which set me back a little. Still, as I type this, I’m reminded that since we moved to Melbourne – a wetter, greyer city than the one we’d been living in – I have noticed the winters more, so go figure. Still, the problem of moving to a new city and then working for yourself does make it hard to create new friendships. I’m still figuring that one out.
    I’m not as brave as you, though! Once I find a medication mix which works, that’s it – I stick to it until a crisis intervenes. No varying the doses, timing, or any other factors!


    1. Oh, I’ve been on the same medication since 2005! I increased the dosage once and added the other in for a few months last year, but that’s the only change I’ve ever made. I’m lucky that it’s never been extremely bad (other than the winters).


  2. I have similar issues with depression, Tommy, so I know how you’re feeling, and how frustrating that can be. You didn’t ask, but I’ll offer you this advice from my doctor: Taking 5,000 iu of Vitamin D per day during the winter months will really help with your dysthymia. It will also help keep your elbows smooth (no snagging on your supplies)! Hang in there, my friend. The days are growing longer!



  3. I like the white, add some yellow. Also, get a job!! That might make you feel better, You have too much time on your hands.


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